When I used to see bloggers say what I’m about to say, I knew it was the beginning of the end.
But I’m still here, and they’re long, long gone, so maybe I’ll prove myself wrong.
I’m clearly not the blogger I used to be. I’m not getting around enough, I’m not responding fast enough, I didn’t run a winter writing contest, I’m not promoting my blog...the list goes on. I used to have two clear identities and goals in my life--lawyer and writer. I had no trouble pursuing both. It was pretty effortless for a time.
Now…not so much. The jump in my career leaves me with so much less energy. Added to that is the feeling that writing just isn’t as valued as it used to be. Publishing novels is bordering on a joke, booksellers are going bankrupt…good times. As a result, I think I've drifted into that artsy camp of writing *just because*. A few people will still do well, but I realize that writing is never going be a big second career for me.
So what now? Knowing myself, I’ll probably endure this rough patch, retool myself, and soldier on. Writing still means something to me. But just in case I can’t keep pace with what I built here at Clarity, then this post might be just what it used to signal in others--the beginning of the you-know-what.
In the meantime, try not to get pissed at me if I’m not the quickest or the most involved or the most out-there. I’m going to try to maintain my three-posts-per-week schedule, but only if I don’t get too repetitive, unoriginal, or downright boring.
Bear with me, my compatriots! I know that if you’re still visiting, then you enjoy coming, and I enjoy knowing you. I just wanted to confess that it’s gotten harder. I don't give up easily, though. Ever. ;)