The Day My Heart Went Nova
by Kansas Bob
Life just wasn’t the same after she died. People asked me if I was lonely but all I could think of was how I felt like I was simply all alone. I knew my kids felt that way too but I was so unable to help them. I wanted to move on but I felt like I was groping in the dark and reaching for my precious star that had gone nova.
Going nova is how I was feeling. It was like something had been ripped from within me and my heart was exploding in a weirdly spectacular fashion. The nova in my heart affected every part of me and everyone in earshot of my pain. I felt like the pieces of my heart would, like that exploding star, never be put back together.
Yet, unlike that star gone nova, my life continued and I found comfort in the lives and love of others. In a sense love put most of the pieces of my heart back together again. My broken heart is almost whole again. Yet without love my heart would still be in pieces and I would be still reaching for that exploding star.