by Mandar S
25yrs. Without riding escalotor!
Hold on, let first tell you about the situation:
Additional features: locomotion disability; can’t walk without leg braces and crutches in my shoulders. If this isn’t makes it hard, I’ve got escalaphobia: fear of climbing an escalators.
Today, me and my conscious decided to end this. Kathy was waiting at other end.
A 6yr old kid was enjoying the ride.
“Look it can’t be that hard, look at that KID” a voice inside my head (must be my conscious)
I went closer to escalator.
Steps were raising form ground. My hearth began pounding.
“This’ll good time to try ‘changing mental “constructs” and think positively’ method of your shrink ” my conscious. Loud and clear.
Took long breath. Lifted my crutches and put them on rising step. It was going up at steady pace.
“Have to act quickly” my conscious. Firmly.
I squeezed my eyes and leaned on my shoulders, lifted my legs, when put them down: a base was felt.
I slowly opened eyes.
Panic griped me.
Ground started to look far away.
Escalator’s steady pace, felt very slow. Few second passed.
I was sweating, holding tightly on crutches.
“POSITIVE THINKING” voice grew louder inside my head.
End was near.
Hearth was drumming. I was wet.
“POSITIVE THINKING, just couple of steps..” a tired voice.
Final step: I jumped off the escalator on to top floor.
I looked at Kathy, she was smiling.