Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Entry #76

Weighing Options
by Elvira D’Souza


As I climb the stairs, anticipation has been building up inside me. I am indecisive whether this is the right move. I am in self doubt whether I should continue with the path I have taken up. It is asking too much from me.

Am not sure whether I am up for it. How can I be up for it, after the continuous failures I have faced? All my efforts have gone down the drains; all those wasted months now seem to gawk onto me.

The hot summer sun has been draining my spirits. Sweat seems to flow done my veins and I can feel my resolve melting away. I continue to contemplate whether I should climb the stairs or move towards the cool shades that beacon me onto their comfort. With tremendous efforts I continue my ascend upwards. I can feel the struggle all around me.

The door towards my goal has opened. As I enter I see the phone cradled in its arm rest. My hand moves towards it and I hesitate as I close the distance between us. Should I call or move away. Finally better sense prevails and I resolve that I will cook. Take away food I bid good-bye. Can’t let the calories lost with the walk up the stairs lose now. As I take my baby stairs towards my resolve of losing weight, each step seems a giant leap all over again.

15 comments:

laughingwolf said...

good one :)

Lena said...

good job done! liked the way you showed her doubts and hesitation.

*~*{Sameera}*~* said...

Ascension indeed!I can relate to this piece so well :)

JR's Thumbprints said...

Nice "dissin' the escalator" story. Richard Simmons would be proud.

JaneyV said...

Oh I have been to this place. I know how she feels. You've captured her physical struggle and her emotional struggle very well here. Good job.

one more believer said...

excellent and engaging...the strength of her will is well reflected in such an endeavor as losing weight...

Sarah Hina said...

What great willpower. :) It's not a slight struggle, but it is a worthy one. I like how clearly you showed the tug-of-war inside of her. A modest, but meaningful, victory. They add up.

Nice writing. Enjoyed your interpretation!

LV said...

@ All - Thank you all for reading the story and for your comments

Catvibe said...

This is a good theme, and one that deserves the loving attention you have given it. Well written. Will power ain't easy!

pjd said...

I saw an Ad Council ad at a conference a few years ago about getting fit. A guy was at a mall's lost-and-found, and he comes across two gross looking blubbery things. The attendant says, "Those? Oh, those are love handles. Lots of people lose them on the stairs when they stop riding the escalator."

bluesugarpoet said...

oh, my! I had a friend who sometimes cried at night because she missed eating bread. It was the one item that would thrust her into binge eating. I can sympathize with this entry too (only mine version has a tug-o-war with will power and a chocolate bar). Nice interpretation of the prompt!

jana

September said...

a giant leap for womankind
good writing

Aniket Thakkar said...

Nicely done! :-D I am sucker for seasoned fries too! :)

@ Jana: Loved you comment... And who generally wins the tug-of-war?? lolzz

LV said...

@ All: Thank you for reading. Really appreciate the comments.
Hoping i continue with the same will power over the next couple of tiring months.

jason evans said...

Thanks for being a wonderful part of the contest!